Christmas List

For once I've made my Christmas list early, well since I was a youngling. Then I would practically make my Christmas list right after my birthday which is in Feb.
So here it is :)
Duvet Cover Set (pink, girly)
Other stuff for my room
Clothes - mostly dresses (and pretty much only from Mr. Price)
Shoes (takkies, sandals, pretty heels or flat pumps)
Accessories (mostly want necklaces)
Books (Fiction)
Recipe Books (cupcakes, cakes or cookie recipe books)
Camera (not a hugely expensive one but a good one)

That's pretty much it for now :)
I want to start decorating early because its better to have the stuff up earlier than leave it on later. I think we may be getting a real Christmas tree this year. My brother only likes the real ones. Frankly I don't think they hold the decorations very well, but they look and smell cool. I should have gotten a part time job so I could save money to get my family some prezzies. Crap, I should have thought about that earlier.

I'm considering taking a few steps back into my comfy little hermit hole. If my happiness was left in the hands of other people I'd be one miserable fool. Luckily I know by now how people can be and I know how to keep myself happy. I'm not gonna lie it sucks when people are crappy to me, the last two days haven't been the best people days. I have myself to blame for most of it though. Anyway, its no one in specific that is getting me down, its a few people all at once. But then again I have wonderful people in my life right now that make me happy too. So I guess there is a balance. Its just easier to feel sad sometimes than be happy. I think its horrible that we can let people make us feel so unhappy, the smallest things can ruin my day. So today there were a few things and its not even 12pm yet. Screw it! Music you are my bestest friend!

Last night I didn't dream of Never Campbell woohoo! I did however have some messed up dreams, the one thing I can remember is that I had to cross a bridge over a lake of lava and each time I did it (I had to do it a few times for some reason) I had to kill a woman that came out of the lake. All the while there was a ginger cat with us and the very last time I crossed the bridge the cat killed the woman and I could get over the bridge.

Gosh if people read this blog they must think I'm the most miserable person in the world, I'm not really. Soon very soon I will be able to wake up and just be happy again. 

I love seeing new emails in my junk folder because 9 times out of ten if will be an email from an agent. But unfortunately it just just another rejection letter. Crap! Oh well. I still haven't heard from Nancy, I think its time I take that as a rejection too. I was really hoping to get this novel published. I know its not time to hand in the towel or whatever the hell that saying is but I think its time to re-edit the story perhaps and try again.

In other news, my sister and her troll gang are moving out this week. I'm going to miss seeing her everyday but holy crap I'm gonna throw a party when they leave! Ohhh boy I'm gonna be one happy little chappy! The place they moving into is pretty sweet, its literally opposite the beach and it has a lovely view. I'm gonna take advantage of that and go walk on the beachfront with my sister every morning.

I think the tooth that got chipped is actually going to help me lose weight. I said no to ice cream this evening... ME saying no to ice cream! Its a big deal, this could be good. In saying that though I want to get it sorted out quickly. I know how fast these things can go downhill.

Well I hope I have wonderful Neve Campbell-less dreams tonight and I hope I can sleep in this heat.
Peace out suckahs.

So this morning started off with a negative bang. I woke up and I got annoyed by the usual things that annoy the crap out of me. Anyway and then I'm happily eating an apple and afterwards I noticed that there is a big chunk out of one of my teeth. That makes me really sad because my brother just had his teeth done and it costs so much. I'm so scared that I'm not going to be able to fix it. I know it isn't the biggest problem in the world to have I AM aware of what other people go through and my problems are pale in comparison but in my little world a chunk out of my tooth is a big problem okay?? I can sit here and play the blame game in my head all day if I like but what the hell is that going to solve? I'm just gonna get over it. I'm just going to get over everything and try move on happily. My sister's boyfriend is a jerk asshole that doesn't treat her right, so what? I'm over it, there's nothing I can do to get her to see it. There is a huge ass gaping whole in my tooth! So What? I'm over it! I can't do a full workout in the morning because there are always people in and out of the house. So what? I'm friggin' over it! I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL I'M DOING WITH MY LIFE!!! So what? So what? Who am I kidding, I'm very much not over it!

In other news. Neve Campbell has featured in my last two nights dreams. First it was the end of the world and she and a team were coming to save people but she wanted to kill me. Last night, she was in my dream again and we were all running from something and she was so scared, I could feel her fear and it scared me too. I find this quite amusing. I think my mind is using pop culture to try tell me something. See Neve Campbell as a dream icon would represent a 'Scream Queen.' I think there's something that my subconcious is very afraid of. I didn't really know what it could be until now, after right all that crap up there. Clearly I'm fearful about where my life is headed. If I'm being totally honest with myself I know that I'm not going to study next year. There is just no money for that. And I'm quite indecisive about what I want to study. I know what I want to do with my life. I want to create things, I want to write stories, or bake cakes or create art.  I don't want to have a stupid retail job or restaurant job ever again. And I certainly don't want a 9 to 5 office job. I will go absolutely mad! So yes, that's where I get indecisive, I want to study something good but some people don't think what I want to study is a proper thing. I wish I could just go live up in an ice cave or something for a year to sort myself out. Okay, I don't want to live in a flippin' ice cave, I just want some time to think. Its not fair putting pressure on someone to do something and then when they want to do it you have a problem with it. Oh gosh, its not right to start your day off thinking like this. Its so negative.

So I'm gonna try change my mood, with good music, something yummy to eat and by making a wicked picture. Peace out!

Neve Campbell in Scream

Some new fave songs of mine:

Best Coast - Honey
Rooney - Not In My House
The Black Keys - These Days
One Republic - Lullaby
Cee Lo Green - No Ones Gonna Love You
The Pretty Reckless - You
Temper Trap - The Drum song
Sia - My Love
Beck & Bat For Lashes - Let's Get Lost
Local Natives - Who Know Who Cares & Airplanes.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hAHD6WQSBWo

My First Cappuccino

This morning I had my very first cappucinno. I'm like a five year old, everytime I took a sip I had a giggle. My family are big coffee drinkers, we're Italian so they appreciate a good cup of coffee but I've never been into it. It was disgusting but I had to try it sometime and it was fun. I think I don't take myself seriously enough to drink coffee. I'm the kind of person that orders milkshakes or milk and cookies.

I had other stuff to say but I totally forgot... Oh well, it'll come to me sooner or later.

Recent Artwork

All my vectors are done with a pen tool and I use Adobe Photoshop.