Christmas!!

Christmas was lovely! I got spoilt, with prezzies and love woohoo! Christmas morning I woke up with flu, but that's the one day it can't get you down. We all opened our prezzies by the tree, everyone loved their stuff. Then we shot through to my dad to collect my brother's new motorbike. Then we came back and helped my mom prepare lunch. My sister and her people came at around 2pm. We all ate lunch, chilled, ate dessert then everyone was sitting around. I felt wicked tired so I went to have a nap. By the time I woke up everyone was gone. Then we went for a drive into Umhlanga. We came back and had chocolate martinis and listened to some chilled cocktail music and sat around the table and had a laugh and stuff, it was lovely.

Here's what I got for my Christmas.
Inception DVD
Camp Rock 2 DVD
20 000 Leagues Under The Sea book
A Tiara
A beautiful Ring
An Ice Cream Cone Cookie Jar
A porclain Cupcake
An Ice Cream Cone pillow
2 Dresses
A costume
Sandals
A 'snuggle up' nighty
3 ugly gnomes
Nail polish
Lip glosses
Fake Eye lashes
An Oven mitt with a Cupcake on
A cupcake stand
Money Gift Voucher
Necklaces
Trinket
Bracelet
Photo Frame
Heart shaped earrings
Star shaped earrings

Weird Dreams

I haven't updated in a while, at least it feels like it's been a while. I deleted some of my later posts as well so it looks like it's been longer than it actually has... ok get on with it now...

I felt the need to write down my freaky ass dreams from last night. It was such weird stuff that I've never dreamt about before, very here and there and mixed up so I'll write down what I remember.

Ok firstly, I was somewhere where like people from a village got saved or something, these woman all had tribal tattoos on their faces. This one woman was lying on a bed, I was checking to see if she was ok, and then she was in a panic, screaming at me telling me what they've done to her and I must look, and she was clawing her hands on my shoulders, I closed my eyes because I didn't want to see and I tried to leave but she wouldn't let me go. I started screaming and eventually someone came to help me get away. After that I was telling everyone what happened and there was a yellow duck walking around. (WTH?)

Next one was a little blonde girl in a yellow dress running after what looked like her twin but smaller. The place looked like a fun fair or something. Her eyes were bright blue and teary. Eventually she followed her twin up some stairs AND THEN this little girl turned into Dakota Fanning and she was stealing from a safe in someones apartment and she had a gun. All of a sudden I could feel how she felt, she was scared and just wanted to leave. But she tucked the money away and her and her friends managed to leave without getting caught by the two guy owners of the flat.

Next one... I was on holiday/living with friends. The place switched between Dublin, Sun City and the La Lucia Mall. And everywhere it was raining. One point in the dream I was at the back of a car with I think my mom, my sister in the front and a friend from Dublin, he was singing some song in a real Irish way and I found it hilarious. Then we were off the road of Dublin city and in a hotel resort where it was raining inside, the place was flooded. I saw a lot more yellow, Cher was somewhere in the dream. And then I was in my room/pool watching music videos and then Vanessa Williams (again WTH?) was at the other end of the pool, she took her gown off and she was wearing a YELLOW (again) bikini and it showed that she was fully pregnant and she got into the pool. Then my friends came to knock to ask if I want to go buy food. I didn't want to go, I felt like I needed to ask Vanessa Williams a question. But I left with them and we were in the mall and we were talking about buying grapes and stuff and I looked around to see all the windows were decorated like it was Easter.

What the hell is all of that? One of the most confusing night of dreams I've ever had. What's with the colour yellow in all of them? And why was it raining all the time even in doors? And why was that freaky tribal woman so desperate to show me her scars? And what did I need to ask pregnant Vanessa Williams? It's all a bit odd.

On a less weird note: I'm excited about Xmas :)

I started this blog because I wanted a place to show all the things that I create. So far I've made it about my crazy ramblings. So I'm going to stop pretending like this blog is about my cupcakes and just go with the natural flow of it being about me. I do apologize for previous posts, I sure know how to be confusing. Anyway I'd like to let everyone know that I am happy. I'm completely content at the moment. Yes I have just woken up but I am content :)

Xmas shopping is going well, we go every night but never seem to get around to buying anything, hehe. So far I've bought my brother and mom something. Tonight I'll get my shopping game on and get the other 3 something great. I was naughty, I bought myself a dress the other night. What? I know it's Xmas time and I could have waited for someone to buy it for me but it was so pretty and things are selling out quick.

Hmm that's all for now :) Oh! I'm busy making a list of possible things to do with my life, when I'm done I shall post it on here.

Vanilla Cupcake with Blue Vanilla Icing

Hello.
Ok first of all, I'm gonna try start this one on a happy note and see how it goes from there. I finally have the pictures of the stuff I baked - YAY!

Ok well that's fun.
That's all for now, Goodbye!

Ok, I haven't posted in a little while. It seems I always tend to write posts when I'm either very happy or a little bit moody. I'm sure as you read you'll see which one I am this morning.
Okay well first of all I'll update you on my dreams;
First I had a dream where I was at my dad and his girlfriend's house. There were lots of animals everywhere. And then there was this legovaan in a pen cage thing. My dad's girlfriend told me to tell the legovaan to write the daily specials on the black board. Then I tried to but I was so freaked out, I told her I couldn't do it, so she laughed at me and gave me a hug and told me to just do it. So I tried again, it ran under some hay and came back up and it had turned into a fluffy white pig and eventually wrote the daily specials on the bed. After that I dreamt my sister kissed some guy in front of her boyfriend and I shouted at her for it and actually felt sorry for her boyfriend.
Next I dreamt of someone two nights in a row, but each time the person wasn't themselves, their face had changed into someone elses. Also in the dream the person wasn't very nice to me when I tried to be nice. And then I got upset and then they were upset that I was upset (jeez Angie get on with it!) and then when they came to apologize was when they changed into someone else.
I'm not good with making decisions so when it comes to making big decisions I'm hopeless. I think I'm on the verge of making a good bad decision. I think there's something that I need to take a step back from. Like drugs, anything that can make you feel amazing or absolutely horrible can't be good for you. Nothing scares me more than a person determining my mood, it freaks me the hell out. Now is not the best time to be feeling like this. Anyway I'm rambling... again. The bottom line is that I can feel as in control as I want, to be honest I do feel pretty damn much in control. That's all for now, I'll take this day to clear my head.

Nightmare within a dream within a dream...

So lastnight I had this nightmare. I was going insane, like really. I was being shipped off to an insane asylum. My sister was there too I think. I felt like I was getting possessed, something evil was inside of me. When I tried to speak I could only make these horrible dark sounds. Eventually I knew what I had to do. I had to let my body go and float up to the ceiling, my back was up on the ceiling and my arms and legs were hanging down, I could view it like I was watching as a third person. I knew what I had to do, I screamed until the dark voice was gone and my eyes opened up to a bright yellow light and I was fine. Then I woke up to find that I was still in a dream. In the dream I felt so freaked out and scared about my nightmare, then I woke up for real and I was fine.

I think I know where this dream is coming from. 1. could be that I'm scared of the darker side of me (yes that sounds funny if you know me :) 2. I'm letting go of some of my fears.

The other night I dreamt I was in a haunted house. There was this one room that I passed, I could feel that something was in there. Everyone thought it was something evil but I wasn't scared. I felt like it was something good and it was scared itself. I tried to call it out but it didn't wanna come.

I'm house sitting again, I got more cash woohoo! People are gonna get spoilt for Xmas ;)
That's all I have for now, I still don't have the pics of my cupcakes... sooooon.

Cookies Need Love Like Everything Does...

Ok so today I've been in an odd mood. When I get inside my head I get trapped there for a while. Today the thing that has been on my mind is stupid really, but it's a basic need that everyone has. It's the need to feel loved... or just cherished. I think I've spent so much time trying to not want the simple things in life, I've been so scared to commit to people. All that is really is my fear of losing people, when you tell yourself that people can be disposed of it's easier when they eventually leave. I'm starting to get over that dumb, heartless way of thinking. If there are people in your life that make a difference to it you have to let them know. Like my friend, she always tells me that I'm her best friend and she loves me. Those two things scare the hell out of me, the best friend thing - I feel like there's an eternal revolving door for people with that title. and "I love you" - if it's not a family member I can't get those words out. Not even for a friend. But I know I'm getting over that, last night I saw my friend and hell she is the best friend I have, she's so sweet, she makes me laugh and she makes me feel like the person I want to be. I do love her. There I said it! And now the whole day I've been thinking about how much I'd like to have a normal relationship. I want someone to call my own, someone I could just invite over and be comfortable with, someone I could tell my parents about and let them come along with me to visit my dad, someone who my brothers and sister could get along with, someone that I could share my ups and downs with, someone to spoil, someone who I could fall in love with without being afraid. I don't know why no one seems to want that with me. I've always been an inbetweener or a 'not the right time' everything but what I'd really like to be. Anyway, what can I do about it? There are people in my life that make me really happy and I'm grateful for them but at the end of the day if I can't have them to myself what does it matter?
Well that's all the rubbish thats been in my head today.
I'll post pics of the stuff I made when my sister brings her camera.

HELLO!!! :D
Today I'm pretty darn excited. I have to bake tons of goodies for that party we are catering. And the order has been doubled. I'm going to be in the kitchen all day - I LOVE IT!! :D
I feel so excited, if I feel so good about doing this then I just know that this is what I'm supposed to be doing.
I can't believe I actually fell asleep last night, I felt so wired and I still feel like that hahahahahahha Eeeeeeeek! :D
My sister has come here now, we're supposed to go shopping for the stuff. We've left it so last minute. I could have gotten started yesterday already and I wouldn't have so much to do today, but whatever I don't mind. I just wanna go now but everyone has to have flippin' breakfast first!
Current song on my mind: Lady GaGa - Christmas Tree
I'll post piccies of my goodies sooooon! :)